<Inside, foresight, never been past
midnight. Adam dawn, mothersuckers never play me. The lights
emrege but the train is fast and we're all on anti-ecstasy.
Sexotomy is painless. Decoy decay, there's no cancer, belief
strange postwards. I've add an affair last year year but it's
irrelevant. I lied way too much. My gods won't repent my body,
silencer's sin. Entropy desert, i walk the line, the holy sands,
the shrines and the pyramids, fate in a sad mood, faking to be
happy when not alone, paid in half. My body disgusts my 149. I
gather 411 randomly but i've tried to shift to more systemism and
totalitarism by investing into books. Libraries gave us power,
then powder came and made us. We'll shift, not paradigms but
syntagms. Last key was the transports, now we've got the axis. I
dedicate my life to the death of me. There ain't no virgin of the
soul i was expecting when i dwelled in city stations and wandered
the streets at night looking for somebody who isn't you. I've
left the station. After the lights go out, the signal fades, the
love load lightens, soon i'll be sober of this world. The same
mirrors, all that you can't leave behind, my newfound perfume,
the stuff you can afford, i must be already gone without leaving
my parent's flat. Take everything from me, split it between my
nefew and my two nieces. I've seen on telly that the reason she
lives is her lover. The same applies to me but i'm alone so no
point is there's here. My belief in any of my gods has vanished
today. The Jihad is only a political cynical stance. No love nor
hate, a polylith that fades to gray. Dead cities, i solate myself
in the contemplation of numbers. I'll try to be polite and
decent. I'll do my best inside and show my worst aside. Rooms,
interriors. My 149 hosts no soul. Mengele in Ostia, one too many,
stones behind. Intergallactic, 911, insterstellar, 149.Wankers
and spankers behold, the dogs of lust are barkin', the sounds
inside my 149, from the crossroad to my doorstep, i tried in my
way to be real but i failed. It's false. Either spare parts. They
forbid to recycle me. The session lightens. There are now
sentences. Short ones. Niņetto and Ossan Hassan are discovering
more silly insults thrown at me. The sidewalk and the sun. Scott
and Bill are alive but they stand where i should. I'll ask the
older one about that bible chapter. Took five valiums yesterday
and smoked too much pot the other evening. You can lematize and
nihilate what remains, but you won't find a way out. You can have
your trip as long as you wish but the stations all depend on you.
Kingdom ain't no fiction. The comitee believes that the self
perfume is an interesting initiative. Wondered if she would
notice. Masters are still makes sad jokes or have their lost
their hands on the deed. I can take anybath, i won't feel any
cleaner. The barrel of my gun on the table. Careless stupid life.
Stoned and dethroned, bleeding wide, crazy in the attic, i'm over
you, over your people, over the trace of your race. Jesus
whispers that i am cursed and she might as well be right. Never
trust a yuppy. Niņetto, we used to be citizens, smokin'kane. In
spite of me. Stoned and dethroned, i give away to strangers what
their desire lusts and lushes them from the places where they
shelter, dangerous connexions under blank protocols, sacred cows
of another forbidden continent, i hurt myself yesterday to see if
i still feel and i don't. I bled in my pants but the pain never
grabbed a focus until i got home to acquire a visual. I've never
been by one side, playin' slides, paying brides, or is it yet
another memory leak, a chemical clown episode or a vanishing
point reached as a lunatic station. Tuck you in, tomorrow, in the
bogs, turkish apple pie, fuck to bleed, nearly midnight and
you're still wanking me as self indulged safer sex interlude.
Lower than the moon, low noon. I saw Vanilla Sky and it blew me
once again. Ditry epic, thin ballerines by the Opera station, she
sends her blessings, the decoy by the airport, we didn't make out
in the parking lot in Denver because she was blonder than i
expected. What a surprise ? Dirty trees gathering by your side,
farmer in the city, be bold and then bald, and the ugly will
follow, sad ageing toy, staring at your shoes, i'll never one
that wears boots. Suck your lingus, tuck you out, finger nails,
bleeding knees, blood on your sheets, i'll look away while she is
with her girlfriend, total regression, time passes me by, trains
to history, labour of books, branch extends in your backyard, all
i want is to go get by, back when i was citizen, ambient, you
walk past me without noticing my inner mental errection. The
momentum, the inner karma, the jokes i'll never understand and
the memories i gambled till i lost them. Shooting my veins while
the sunny god stares at my back, inner voices were fakes, corn
flakes turned into fags for a shag. What are you talking about ?
The real me, the one that matters, not the office dummy that
bleeds code for a chance to bite more bytes. I started a book
online under a different alias, produced more hits. I forgot her
in the contemplation of my numbers, i tried to run away but the
devil outside tucked me back in, the garden's secret, 21 monks
and an ape, fake Mo'Waxes under heavy taxes. Fire on the wires,
coppermine landsccapes, landslides powered by microsoft, i almost
worked for them before the bubble but i leaked motivation and
started a joke that never ended. This is the third in a series of
four monochromatic essays. It's a lapse when i force myself to
write down all that goes through my brain while the tension is
adequate. Narco tourism is a way i should explore. I once had
ecstasy while away alone in the cowlands. I never understood that
pragma stance and remained a lonesome wanker. When the lights
came off in the middle of my sight, the target was locked on a
grid, a button to push, enola gay, subverb the basis, forward in
the attic, what are you talking about, lord he knows i'm wrong
and splurge, i didn't came, i escaped when nobody was noticing, i
met you afterwards and we were both silent. Central reservation,
ticket on sale, london by boat, cycling like a fat tabacco junky
on sugar kane, queer as kings, i love my solitude, question of
attitude, too selfish to share anything, one too many mornings,
careless shouts, major kudos to the stereo, the signal fades
inside, Chile was the last solution, eversince i was a kid, i
faked it, would you dare to love me, i wanna be your dog man
star, lush for life. My hands on keyboard give me more pleasure
than my dick. My spell kicks me more than my tongue. The music
was beautiful and you've been all the way down to this point but
you won't understand what it's all about unless you did the same
with the french lyrics. It's like a high diving plane whose wings
take you to the Marquises to enjoy your last dance before a
lethal fuck. The acid-house rain bleaches my hair unless it's the
time lapse between us. When the lights came out in the middle of
the day, may we dance at the engagement party, no more questions.
The trunct tainted truck tucks you off. I forgot the adress but
you belonged there, late night parties at the ambient palace,
stalingrad decoys, fake attics, fanatics of bassball, we're all
gonna die at a dire point of desire. Who can't you trust, the one
that leads your troops, the one the wind leads you to, the one
you lust after for 10 years and then neglect to dive for. I've
yet to decide on a fake name for my tuck buddy but her grace
won't survive the next tide. There was this sience that comes to
our techno coma when no one could bleed, you've reached at
station when you were expected behind bars, 911 strings, 200
bars, medication floating around us, dance me till morning comes
to town, cities of progress, cities of death, large avenues of
knowledge, karma suits you, metal and latex, spider-cat transfers
more money than trip-hop junkies, her wig of cobalt gems, dark
train that penetrates her, the signal decays but the summer won't
vanish, who's gonna ride the mad aloof when i end up in tear
under the snow in Paris, Tibet. Bin Harry for ever, tuck you with
my fingers, the sexual jihad, the time has come if you find the
earth boring. She's different everytime we meet, an hypermaket, a
train station. The funky drummer is dead by now and they've
turned this place where we had our couch into a patatoes joint
the stinks like keebab. Shesheido on my face, farenheit on my
skin, pods on ear, the tracks are mine. Loco, emotion, static.
Dark hard, dirty guitar, lost cities, vanishing joints, jetlagged
models, opera dancers, mystic messengers, holly scents,
scientists and socialists. Silence is easy when you're a dummy.
Will you miss me, i guess not because you don't know my name for
it is sacred and unspoken. The spelling device that never was.
The landlord will be happy. No more shall we part. The departure
is inevitable. No more are we part. The masterplan and it's
aftermath. Ten fucking, non bleeding, years have passed. I'll got
to the bank one of these days and it won't be long, you're gonna
call my alias and i'll be gone with her, free whillin' like Bob
Dylan. That's it, i'm about to come, so do i repulse the first
primary instinct i ever had. There's more to come but it'll be
blank. Anthartica starts here again. Lord bless her. No more
shall we part. Pearl labour, union transitive, translate the
missive, i loved her that day, no all i care about is solitude,
cocaine and the stock market. We were minerals and so be it.
Taking consequences of coincidences.>