wake up at 4 am, feels strongly anxious, must sleep
some more, can hardly type or ckick, tripple vision,
listen to Joy Division' Atmosphere and get back to bed,
three hours later is the same, evvenn after coffee,
double is the vision, not sleeping in spite of me, works
best with one eye closed.
There's gonna neeed the some troubble, i can't
calculate, too early, fake fiction nation, weeks on
orbit, can hardly type. burning seconds, distress and
agony, the rush to the pills, can keep track of time,
scales escalatate to the sea, that movie with that scene
at that same dune, no incoming mail, dial or flush
garbage, another cocktail, care for clothes, the bay
dune, trench coast,
hospitalisation on 22nd jully 00
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